It has been sort of hard transitioning out of my life in Honduras. I’ve thought about it a lot now, why it meant so much to me. and i realize its because i’ve never had so few distractions, and felt that that the majority of my time was had so much purpose and focus and had such meaning, and all the close people around me were encouraging me and continuing to push me forward, rather than distracting me with other things. thats what made it all incredible and such a unique context. its going to be really hard to find something like that again. part of me really wonders if i did the right thing by leaving, how God is going to come up with something better. but, there is this passage that my favorite author CS Lewis wrote once; we’re like a small child making mudpies in the slums who cannot possibly fathom what is meant by a holiday at the sea. And thats how we are when presented by God’s amazing will. so that’s what i’m trying to keep in mind and i change where i am, who i’m with, and what i’m doing. that even if its harder and not so incredible, well its probably to teach me something then. the first time i went to the Dominican Republic I distinctly was making a choice to do something to put myself out of my comfort zone, because i wanted to grow. It turned out to be one the best experiences of my life, and much less challenging than i had thought it would be , but I did learn and grow so much. and it was a definite plus to be less painful of a growing experience than i expected.